Well it's a nice, quiet, cool, saturday night but still a hectic one for my head. So far schools been okay. I somewhat am keeping up with the reading and HW yet still have my habit of procrastination. I'll break out of that sooner or later. Anyway today I decided to take the day off for myself however I can't stop thinking so I ended up updating my myspace profile for hours...lol...how productive! Things I guess are back to normal. Actually no fuck that things aren't normal and they won't be for a very long time. I kinda sorta just put it behind me temporarily to forget about it but in the end it still lurks at me. I'm just tired of it all and I know I've been saying this for a while but I can't even remember the last time I felt happy, that I felt on track, that I felt no one could bring me down, that I was the very best. I think my stressing is getting worse. See the other night, I do believe it was on the 17th, I got a migraine attack that I actually went to the hospital. Yeah the hospital I couldn't even believe it when I was there lying on the bed all drugged up. I haven't been to a hospital since the day I was born and I was planning on keeping it that way for a long time. But my migraine got so bad this time that I actually went. Now I know that my body is taking to much abuse. Now I have to take prescribed medicine which makes me sleepy and dizzy. This sucks big time! Last night however was a great chill night. I went out with some of my walmarta buddies, we chilled around, drank, watched clerks II (then stay tuned after the credits to see on of our friends name appear on the credits lol), drank some more, smoked, chatted, played some super smash and finally got home around 4 in the morning. It was awesome helped me vent and relax. Only the drinking helped me to remember my problems and smoking helped to me release them. Ah well at least I had a good time. I just thought I'd blog about my pointless day lol.
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